Of late, i’ve been having moments of clarity.On the bus, as I passed by the nursery and saw the kids in fervent fever, rushing to get flowers for vday. JC kids in uniform, council people presumably, buying stalks in bulk and then attempting to earn some money in school. I heard that rj was providing an anonymous service for 15 bucks per stalk. ah, we all fall prey to consumerism.

but i digress.So many things to remind me that I’m getting older,the uniform, the frantic flower buying- the prickly excitement in the air that i could almost feel as well- the rush to get the flowers for the girl, the rush to get the flowers to sell to the guy to give to the girl, all too familiar.

Then a momental rush, of dreams of mine, and the desire to want to make things happen. How I was once bubbling with excitement like them, but now past that stage. On to something else, something better.

Then, while I was at the gym later that day, the keychain that I conveniently left where it was since the first day I got it, snapped. I probably gave too hard a tug I suppose. And for a moment, I didn’t quite know what to do. To feel a twang, or not. And I realized, that like other things, it was time to put it where it was really meant to be. Behind. Sentimental fool.

On people. Confusing creatures they are. I attempt to read them, but all I get is fuzzy logic. I’ll subsist on vibes and intuition and instincts, thank you very much. But sometimes, it would be nice to see through the haze. Words, they speak of deja vu. Then I start to retreat. Because I start to feel vulnerable.

So this is something new, a thrill.  Did I mention, I like the image header above, my tioman photo.
Well, Its always nice to start something new.As like everything else. An all too familiar thing the voice in my head says.

And this is as about as honest as I can get.

Good Night World.

//Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can’t help but ask myself how much
I’ll let the fear take the wheel and steer.
It’s driven me before, and it seems to have a vague,
haunting mass appeal.
But lately I’m beginning to find that I
should be the one behind the wheel.